It's Life!

Its a turbulence... A chaos... An Uproar right inside the muscular organ which is responsible for pumping blood in the body!
Feel every bit of the tremor and quiver right inside there where voices dont reach, yet there is so much talking!
Lines on my forehead contract with expression when thoughts flow as if it was a waterfall with no obstacles...
I internalise every bit of this tremor... I know every bit of what it is... feels strange, feels weird, feels different, feels strong, feels wow, feels disturbed, feels amazing!
I believe in expression! thats life for me!
The feeling of completeness is expression for me...
whether its drinking a glass of bournvita that mom makes in the morning or drinking 2 glasses of buttermilk in one breath or driving the activa in mad rains when rain falls on my helmet glass and I see through the greenary drooping from both sides of the road... or the intensity in the eyes, the expressions on the faces, the clashes of emotions, the silence which speaks so much, the gestures which dont require words... its all the same... thats life for me!
It brings completeness... which as an expression is my purpose of living!
I Live for this expression... There is a turblence, a clash in my thought process... the rights/wrongs, the can do's, should do's, must do's are always conversing with the cant's.
Wondering... m i too fast in my thought process? does the multiplications and additions happen too fast then required? why doesnt subtractions and divisions happen? isnt this the time... the right time?
I guess I know the way out... yet dealing with the turbluence consumes up all the energy!!!
Am I messing up? am I expecting too much? am I being demanding? or am I just cluttering tooo quickly now!!! haaa... sometimes feel proud at the speed rate of my thought process and my super multi tasking! sometimes feel why the hell do my thoughts multi task so much... it just increases the rate of clutter!
Doesnt take a fraction of a sec for an emotion to change... expereinced it! more than emotion its the decision and choice hiding behind this emotion. Its easy to avoid reaction, to ignore, to give up... whats difficult is to DEAL!!! to wake up... to understand the power our word has.
well... just writing... and dealing... the turbulence!!!
Once again... living the moment!... one moment of chaos... one moment of completeness! one moment of mixed emotions... one moment of staticness! one moment of tears which are just not able to come out... one moment of the curve on the face which is a purpose to live!
Love it... Living it! :)