It's Life!

The dark clouds moved apart and gave way to the possibility of light which was like a distant dream all this while. Many a times this dark tunnel seemed never ending, infact the deeper we went, the darker it became. Its true... you need to experience death to experience life all over again!
A friend made this statement yesterday... "There is only Good that will happen from here!"... and I so rightly believe it now!
Just so true... Everything arises out of language!!!... Reality doesn’t exist... we create it!
A world of infinite possibilities is glaring right in the eye... The road will get tuffer but ready and all set to explore infinity! coz tough times don’t last... tough people do!
Living this moment... coz life is in the NOW, in this moment!
Glad to have people around who stood like pillars in this journey of the dark tunnel! Wishing the best for everyone who adds power to existence!
Just cant thank god enough for my best friend's happiness who once said this to me n also believed in it fully... "HOPE DOEST DIE ANY DAY IN ANY ONE, IT JUST DRIES UP FOR SOMETIME, IT EMERGES ONLY WHEN IT SEES A HOPE OF LIGHT IN THE VERY DARK ROOM WHERE IT RESIDES."
Its the beginning of the end of the dark tunnel!!! :)

Keep saying this with a lot of melo drama a lot of times...
Ya sansarik jeevanchi moh-maya... mala nako!!!
Sometimes when I am conversing or just being myself... I feel everything around me is an illusion of my thoughts... its only maya... nothing is real...
I feel I am sleeping and seeing a dream... and all that it occuring around me is happening in my dream... I am not real, I am an illusion of my thoughts, a part of my dream...
Yeah... sounds philosophical or spiritual types but can really feel that way many a times...
Was watching Ramayan and few days ago in this episode... someone says...
One has to give up 3 things to attain peace of mind... Lobh (Greed), Moh (Love) and Bhay (Fear)... It sounds big but it stands true for each of us and the best part is... we all know of it already! But is it possible in today's scenario???
I dont agree to the concept that mind is at peace when in silence, meditative posture etc etc... Rather if Peace of mind is attained when walking on a road divider which heavy noise, traffic coming towards and going way on both sides then its more powerful.
Its strange, we feel we are all different... but actually we arent!... catch random conversations around you and you will see that too... we are all, almost same... each of us fears the person sitting next to us and conveniently forget that even that person is fearing us! When you listen to random conversations of people... someone in the train, someone in office, someone on road... you will always be able to relate to it... coz end of the day we all talk the same things, same topics, same issues, the same bloody moh-maya's!!!
Right now the whole world seems to be going through a tsunami within... negativity spreading much faster than any kind of postivity, 1 bad v/s 10 goods is catching up faster, lows pulling down all the energies we have... as if its like the gravitational force pulling us down, a constant clash of thoughts and heart within! We hear... market is bad, there is recession, there are no jobs, its become an employers market, there are bills outstanding, no money to pay salaries, companies to shut down, its a bear market, no one wants to spend, prices of everything is rising high, the big shots have lost jobs, etc etc etc... Do we really need to be listening to all this?
Yah its easier said than done... esp when the gravitational force of this low is much faster than any upswing!
We are in this "loose-loose" state (the 4th of the Life Positions)... where if I loose, I want the other to loose too... so that if it hurts, both of us are hurt together... We get used to a phase so quickly, now when I read xxx job cuts, xxx companies closed etc etc, I dont even feel a pinch inside anymore... quite a similar situation to how its become when we read xxx people dead, xxx people injured, bomb strike here, terrorist attack here etc etc... We are in the amazing lazy comfort zone where it only stinks but we got used to the stink as well! So... I loose, i am ok with it... but on the condition that u loose as well! Can see where are we headed... infact all of us see that in our sub-conscious mind... we can see existence ending because of us continuing to be this way like forever now! I have been saying this in a little more melo dramatic way... Duniya nasht hojayegi... very soon... and at that time it wont matter kiska bill bharna baki hai, kiska salary dena ya lena baki hai, kisko kisse problem hai, kaun kisse baat nahi karta!!! who will care about all this when its all ending!!! when survival and existence will be a question!? So strange is all this... but its far more stranger that we are all aware, we are present to this state of our life yet yet yet we are only moving deeper into the low and letting our energies get pulled!
Yeah... thats how the sansarik jeevanchi moh-maya is... Inherently a living being craves for being loved, wanted and supported. How can one break that is so natural to each of us! We move out of relationships, be cruel to people we loved, etc etc but end of the day what matters is to love and be loved... yeah... the moh-maya of people for people! We can get over materialistic moh-maya but what about the people we love! We need them, then why do we resist them when people want to be there for us!
A friend told me this story about Mahavir Bhagwan… in which he avoids doing what he intended to do just so that because of his action somebody else’s sins don’t add up! A thought opened up for me… Our actions, expectations lead to somebody else’s sins… like we keep saying… How could he/she do this to me? We make that he/she a reason for our sadness… and dhooofff… that’s the frequency we emitted… now this circle will be completed by that he/she through their deeds or sins… Its the Circle of Life... Right here, Right Now! How strange is this working of the moh-maya!!!
Have been seeing... a new way to live has been forming up because of this recession thing thats going around... its "LOL on urself!" Yeah... we laugh on ourselves on our jobless, salaryless, relationshipless conditions... make a joke out of everything and anything thats not going the way we wanted it to be... reduces the stress, pain and helps us live one more day in this state!
A lot of shit is happening around.... Each of us a negligible part of the shit... but just like a drop of water fills the whole ocean... a little shit from us fills the whole negative world!
Being a player on the court as well as a spectator to this game of life and wondering....
whats next!!!

Am I different from myself?
Situations and enviornment around makes me think... With 2 eyes, 2 ears, I doubt, am I blind or dumb to not see? or Is it to do with selective seeing or what?
Some say you should read between the lines... some say thats too much of analysing!
My freinds tell me I analyse too much but here I see that I dont even see the obvious!
Is it to do with weak data interpretation and critical reasoning skills or its just that I only see what I want to!
We all know, whats right and wrong according to you isnt the same way according to others... then why do we all keep judging and concluding and assuming from what is seen to the eye!
when you cant see what you want to see, everything seems so complex and you find yourself entangled in its complexity. Struggling and fighting to get a way but stuck in the vision you want to see and hence its impossible to see beyond the vision!

Have been thinking about People profiles since quite some time...
Wonder whether do people like what they do?
If someone asks me what is my profession... I say HR... and then the next obvious question... so what do you do as an HR?... and I am blank... I wonder why I dont have a concerete answer to it... I thought this was only with me but asked a few more freinds from different professions and they too had similar thoughts... why is generally so difficult to explain what you do!? I start to think what is an HR supposed to do, what did i read in the MBA books... ok... so its supposed to be recruitment, performance apprisal, training, employee engagement etc etc... what jargons! Makes me wonder... is it that only I find all this so weird or its a a world wide phenomena to find it difficult to decribe what you do!?

We all keep cribing... I dont like my job! I dont like my boss! I dont like the tasks that I am handling! I dont like etc etc etc etc... basically a professionally dissatisfied person!
but is it really so!? With experience I have started to think... Jasa dista tasa nasta... there is something more to it than what meets the eye!
Think if someone out there who created borunvita, if he was also caught by this dissatisfaction loop then what would I have drunk everyday morning and felt so energised about!
Everything... from the toothbrush to the clothes we wear to the shoes, to the bottle in which we drink water, to the pen we use to write to this keyboard I am using to type right now to this blogger site to this everything just everthing!!! Its all created by someone we need to Thank!
Then come to services... we all provide service... as an HR I am supposed to provide service to say a new joinee by helping him/her cope with a new place.. similarly the services we use throughout the day... do people really like to provide it?
I wonder what gets people to do what they do!? True... we are all bound by the choices we make... the beggar on the road is a beggar by choice more than by force... just the way I am an HR by choice... then why is there so much of dissatisfaction about these same choices we make ourselves!
Would the guy selling books at andheri station really like doing that? He isnt even educated enough to read the titles! Would the guy providing the service of polishing your shoes really like doing that? Would everyone around you and me like doing what they are doing??? Guess yes! Guess not! but what matters is they choose to do what they are doing!
I went to this Print shop to get few pics printed, the vendor looking at one of the pic exclaimed Oh this place!!!... I said ya we visited to hang out for a day... and the guy looks as me with a look I cant forget... he says I live there... Its a 6 hour travel everyday for him to get to reach that print shop! I was speechless for a moment... and wondered would this guy really want to come so far to work everyday!!!
Maybe not! When we hear such instances, when we see someone begging, someone selling chana chor garam on the road, we say maybe he didnt have any other choice! Would that be the case... ?
I am not sure whats the distinction between... Thats the choice! and Thats the choice coz there is no other choice! We say we are ruled by the choices we make!
Even the choice of chosing something coz there is no other choice is also a choice we are making!!! End of the day we stand in our own shoes and live that unhappy choice! How strange na!
But thats Life!... Is it really!?