It's Life!

Keep saying this with a lot of melo drama a lot of times...
Ya sansarik jeevanchi moh-maya... mala nako!!!
Sometimes when I am conversing or just being myself... I feel everything around me is an illusion of my thoughts... its only maya... nothing is real...
I feel I am sleeping and seeing a dream... and all that it occuring around me is happening in my dream... I am not real, I am an illusion of my thoughts, a part of my dream...
Yeah... sounds philosophical or spiritual types but can really feel that way many a times...
Was watching Ramayan and few days ago in this episode... someone says...
One has to give up 3 things to attain peace of mind... Lobh (Greed), Moh (Love) and Bhay (Fear)... It sounds big but it stands true for each of us and the best part is... we all know of it already! But is it possible in today's scenario???
I dont agree to the concept that mind is at peace when in silence, meditative posture etc etc... Rather if Peace of mind is attained when walking on a road divider which heavy noise, traffic coming towards and going way on both sides then its more powerful.
Its strange, we feel we are all different... but actually we arent!... catch random conversations around you and you will see that too... we are all, almost same... each of us fears the person sitting next to us and conveniently forget that even that person is fearing us! When you listen to random conversations of people... someone in the train, someone in office, someone on road... you will always be able to relate to it... coz end of the day we all talk the same things, same topics, same issues, the same bloody moh-maya's!!!
Right now the whole world seems to be going through a tsunami within... negativity spreading much faster than any kind of postivity, 1 bad v/s 10 goods is catching up faster, lows pulling down all the energies we have... as if its like the gravitational force pulling us down, a constant clash of thoughts and heart within! We hear... market is bad, there is recession, there are no jobs, its become an employers market, there are bills outstanding, no money to pay salaries, companies to shut down, its a bear market, no one wants to spend, prices of everything is rising high, the big shots have lost jobs, etc etc etc... Do we really need to be listening to all this?
Yah its easier said than done... esp when the gravitational force of this low is much faster than any upswing!
We are in this "loose-loose" state (the 4th of the Life Positions)... where if I loose, I want the other to loose too... so that if it hurts, both of us are hurt together... We get used to a phase so quickly, now when I read xxx job cuts, xxx companies closed etc etc, I dont even feel a pinch inside anymore... quite a similar situation to how its become when we read xxx people dead, xxx people injured, bomb strike here, terrorist attack here etc etc... We are in the amazing lazy comfort zone where it only stinks but we got used to the stink as well! So... I loose, i am ok with it... but on the condition that u loose as well! Can see where are we headed... infact all of us see that in our sub-conscious mind... we can see existence ending because of us continuing to be this way like forever now! I have been saying this in a little more melo dramatic way... Duniya nasht hojayegi... very soon... and at that time it wont matter kiska bill bharna baki hai, kiska salary dena ya lena baki hai, kisko kisse problem hai, kaun kisse baat nahi karta!!! who will care about all this when its all ending!!! when survival and existence will be a question!? So strange is all this... but its far more stranger that we are all aware, we are present to this state of our life yet yet yet we are only moving deeper into the low and letting our energies get pulled!
Yeah... thats how the sansarik jeevanchi moh-maya is... Inherently a living being craves for being loved, wanted and supported. How can one break that is so natural to each of us! We move out of relationships, be cruel to people we loved, etc etc but end of the day what matters is to love and be loved... yeah... the moh-maya of people for people! We can get over materialistic moh-maya but what about the people we love! We need them, then why do we resist them when people want to be there for us!
A friend told me this story about Mahavir Bhagwan… in which he avoids doing what he intended to do just so that because of his action somebody else’s sins don’t add up! A thought opened up for me… Our actions, expectations lead to somebody else’s sins… like we keep saying… How could he/she do this to me? We make that he/she a reason for our sadness… and dhooofff… that’s the frequency we emitted… now this circle will be completed by that he/she through their deeds or sins… Its the Circle of Life... Right here, Right Now! How strange is this working of the moh-maya!!!
Have been seeing... a new way to live has been forming up because of this recession thing thats going around... its "LOL on urself!" Yeah... we laugh on ourselves on our jobless, salaryless, relationshipless conditions... make a joke out of everything and anything thats not going the way we wanted it to be... reduces the stress, pain and helps us live one more day in this state!
A lot of shit is happening around.... Each of us a negligible part of the shit... but just like a drop of water fills the whole ocean... a little shit from us fills the whole negative world!
Being a player on the court as well as a spectator to this game of life and wondering....
whats next!!!