It's Life!

It's life is about life.. direct dil se!

The stage is set... the curtains are up...
Wondering am I really so important?
So many relatives have come all the way from far and wide to attend my big day.
Everyone's dressing up, looking good... all for my occasion.
Happy for me...
All for me...

and me...
I am with jitters uncontrollable.
Everything about my life is going to change.
My ideologies, my wishes, my dreams... the "me" is what I need to drop.
New duties, new responsibilities, new ideologies... I got to adapt.
Perceptions to deal with, dislikes to let go, transformation to embrace.
Everyone around me is rejoicing for my big day but I am trembling from within.
May god be there through this phase with me.


Time is slipping away...
As I see life getting transformed into new within a week.

I know millions get married, million girls leave their parents, family, house, belongings, their life to enter into another person's life, his parents, his family, his house, his belongings. But for me its still the first time, the only time, the new time. Millions may have done it but for me its now and it is it. It may have been simpler or tuffer for others, but for me its what I am feeling at the moment.

Been told where I grew up is parents house and husband's house is your own house. So I am going to my house. After 29 years of life I have lived and loved I am stepping out.
Pankhida ne aa pinjru jhunu jhunu laage... bahu e samjavu toye pankhi navu pinjaru maange... 

Time is slipping away from between my fingers as a told it tighter... A week will be gone in a blink and I will be placed into a totally different world. Thoughts thoughts and only thoughts... they don't leave my brain even for a fraction. Even as a meditate I am sitting in either past thoughts or future thoughts.

Putting self together in this moment strongly is what I am striving to do.
All geographical terminologies which only imagined so far I can feel within me strongly... platelet movements, volcanic disruptions, tectonic movements...
Battling it all, calming it down because I have only a week before a new life takes over.

All will good.
I smile and I am at peace.