It's Life!

Walking on a lonely road...
Came alone... will go alone... met so many in this journey between inhaling for the 1st time & exhaling for the last time...
Lived moments, loved every existence that was around, cribbed over every existence that was around... coz always the want was for some more...!!!
some more love... some more pain... some more moments... some more life!
Accepted people the way they are... but didnt accept people the way they are not! This selfish creature within wants good for everyone around... why? so that the creature within is troubless...
Walking on the road divder with noise coming towards and going away from me... unknown faces not bothered to even look at each other... all in a hurry, hurry to live, hurry to die, hurry to just let time pass away...
Feels like lifeless creatures walking like black shadows of their ownselves around...
The city is full of just dead emotions... as if waiting for an end!
I see a dream amongst all of this sighs and pain within and around...
A wave.... a wave just slowly.... very slowly creeping in... uncovering the mask that every individual is wearing here...
A wave filled with colour... blue, vermilion, bright yellow, mauve, olive green, peacock green, baby pink, purple, brown, maroon, sky blue, lemon yellow... all glowing with neon lights...
A wave... slowly creeping in... on the city, on the living beings, on the dead beings, on the lifelessness of everything, everyone walking on this dead road, on this dead earth....
A wave... catching speed... flowing as if it was water... flowing like a wave never even seen in dreams...
A wave... aiming to wash away the deadness, the lifelessness, the sighs, the frustrations, the pain, the bondage, the terror, the fear, the disgust...
A wave... now flowing like water, spreading like fire.... unstoppable, unbeatable....
everyone, everything just out there... welcoming it... and suddenly... everything just turned around...
darkness became darker... yet it was beautiful, tears rolled like they would never stop... yet they looked like the glowing pearls, there were contractions, antithesis in everything possible... yet there was wonder, there was amaze, there was a little smile slowing catching up to be a long curve on every face!
A wave I see as I walk on this lonely road...
and I give power to my thoughts....
Living a moment... yet again!

What an irony of life!
what a crossroad!
what a phase!
Everyday is actually a new page in the book of life...
quite true like in the song... "roz naya kuch likhti hai tu... eh zindagi... yeh lamha jee lene de!"
To value a thing, person or a feeling... you have to loose it! and by the time you start valuing its existence... its too late! coz that moment is lost and its lost forver... its never going to be back... its never going to be lived the way it was planned! The moment is over!
There is always a positive side to everything and so it is to even this part of loosing...
as its said... "everything happens for the good!", "you get what u need, not what u want" etc etc... all this holds true but the fact remains... the moment which was in thoughts is lost and its lost forver! and untill so many such moments are lost, its value is never felt!
what an irony but life prooves it to you... again and again! and it wasnt enough once... so it will proove it to you again and again!
Standing at the same point where I started... just like a camera pan's... I feel life just panned by and I am standing at the same point... no difference of even an inch!
Is there a problem within or its in the life that just panned by? wondering on the game life is playing and its also royally enjoying itself!
whats ahead is obviously unknown... it brings anxiousness and fear, at the same time wonders! Its said... Its all in the mind! Yes... its all in the mind... then, then what does the heart do? If mind plays the dominant role then why does the heart have to take the pain?
Laughing and crying at the same time... what an irony!
Loose it... to value it!.... Hence prooved!

Its Valentines Day today so thought of Thanking Love for being Love!
We give so many meanings to Love... trust, understanding, attachment, lust, power, madness, pure, commitment, blind, energy, painful, distraous, foolish, sacrifice etc etc... but the truth is... Love is Love! plain & clear...
Then there are different types of love, we categorise it... Unconditional love, infactuation, crush, possesive, crazy, temporary etc etc...
But is Love really definable or does it need to be defined?
Love is Love! No meanings attached to it...
Its either there or its not there.
It makes you feel on the top of the world, makes you feel like the best thing on earth!
Love is everything to those who can feel love and is nothing to those who dont want to feel love.
It cant be defined... Its there and it can be felt. It cant be quantified or categorised. You cant set deadlines to it. You cant hide it or forget it if its there. Its evident if its there.
Its contagious and heavenly! You are at peace inspite of utter chaos within you. The pain and suffering is the outcome of expectations we have on love.
Love is Love and you are at your best when in Love!
Love more... !

Era's after era's! Years after years! This has been happening....
Women giving the Agni pariksha for their Men... Sita gave this test by walking on fire... and ever since then this repeated in every era, every period of time!
One version says... "Ram had never doubted Sita's purity even for a second, but, as he explains to a dazzled Sita, the people of the world would not have accepted or honoured her as a queen or a woman if she had not passed this Agni pariksha before the eyes of millions, where Agni would destroy the impure and sinful, but not touch the pure and innocent."
Another version of this, was that "Rama had known Sita was going to be abducted by Ravana ahead of time. So, he entrusted her to Agni Dev, or the God of Fire. Rama did this so that he, who in reality was Vishnu, could kill Ravana. Sita, in turn, left behind a "shadow", or twin-like version of herself behind. The "shadow" Sita had been abducted by Ravana. Therefore, the lila of Agni Pariksha was to retrieve the genuine Sita from the temporary care of Agni Dev. "
(Source: Wikipedia)

I am not blaming anyone here... Nor Ram! Neither Men!
No one is at fault! No one is to be blamed!
If life has some rules... so be it! Living it!
10% Love, brings 20% Pain & suffering along with it... Thats life... not complaining!
Being a woman is an honour to life! is an honour to live!
A lot runs in the head all the time at a very high frequency rate... brings suffering, pain, frustration, emotional disturbances... yet end of the day... their is tolerance, paitence & peace!
Feels proud to be a woman! to be a strenght of mankind! be it in the form of Sita for Ram or just a woman in a man's heart!
Its Womanpower! Its a woman's trust, faith & intention!
Read this quote and believe in it completely... "She can be the wind below your wings or the reason for your ship to sink!" Choice is yours...
She will give... she will wait... she will smile and she will be by you always!
She is a woman... simply defined as powerful! :)

you get me rockin & reeling, you are so wonderful feeling
ishq mein tere dil rab se jooda hai meine duniya bhulai hai
khudaya khair... khudaya khair...
listening to this song and my head moves with its beats...
khudaya khair... khudaya khair...

Yup... I am rocking and reeling!
wondering how!?
maybe its the power of faith!
Sometimes u just know it deep within u and maybe this time I know it!
I am not gonna give up... didnt take birth to give up!
faith is power and I have it!
I am powerful! :)

Happened again... cribbed, yelled, shouted in pain... Once again it was the same... wondered, questioned, yelled aloud, broke in pieces, shattered...
Fell as much deep as much it made me fall... then obviously the way out was the way up...
so here I am... getting up... climbing up... cheering up... reeling and rocking!
Coz... I believe! and I know... the way ahead is way I choose to take!

you get me rockin & reeling, you are so wonderful feeling
ishq mein tere dil rab se jooda hai meine duniya bhulai hai
khudaya khair... khudaya khair...
;)