Can see! Present! Know it all!
Yet being blind! Call it being selfish, call it being self-centered, call it stubborness, call it egoistic!
Knowing the consequences, knowing the reasoning yet choosing to be blind!
Why? coz choosing the "Me", the my wishes, the my expectations, the my happiness!!!
Here the question is not about conscience... its about choice!
Choice made is to satify the stubborness! Choosing to take instead of giving! Feels terrible to internalise this feeling of intended blindness!
Doesnt it sound like the cost benefit anaylsis, return on investment?
Feels articifial! feels superficial! feels unconnected! yet feels difficult to drop the "Me" and pick the "We"! Knowing that the pay off is high... yet the choosing the I, Me!
Can this selfishness be dropped?
Is giving without expecting possible?
Loosing at both ends! Inspite of knowing this... yet!!!
Wondering... where m I headed with this stubborn unconnect & intended blindness!.....
SoMe NiGHTS
10 years ago
1 comments:
Well this isn't you speaking...'Feels terrible to internalise this feeling of intended blindness!'
internalise this feeling of intended blindness... i think whatever it be, you'd want to call it.. you become more selfish when you need to think of another to do something... we intead of me... me is about taking up your case... responsibility
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