It's Life!

Amidst all that I am trying to deal internally... here was a cut & break day.
One's mom was suffering from cancern...
One's grandfather was on death bed and needed medicines worth 2000/- everyday...
One got married yesterday...
One is getting married tomorrow...
One is leaving for honey moon today...
One is a sole earning member...
One just joined a month ago, not even got on the rolls even once...
One was filled with angast on why rules are different...
One was worried about long hours to spend...
One was in tears asking some consideration to be given to the ones outside...
One lives alone, doesnt even have a family to go to share this low with...
One doesnt have anything more left here, so will move out...
One and more... and One by one... everyone...
A day of cuts and breaks... a day 03-03-09... I dealt with. Put up this very strong, insulated me for the whole day... and infact even managed to do that...
but as I walked home alone... started to relive every moment of the day and then couldnt stop from not relating to humanity...
Was amidst of what I am resisting since quite some time. I refuse to accept the state I am in. I refuse to. I know I am resisting...
3 things one can do... either accept, or give up/in, or resist...
Inspite of knowing that resisting will only increase the needle pricking pain that goes deep inside... yet I refuse to accept!
Its cuts & breaks all around... whether its in the material things or in the internal turmoils!
I Fight with the fight back spirit within coz I know this time I refuse to get a life!