It's Life!

A castle was built in a far far land... This castle had a window from where a lot of breeze would enter and make this place worth dieing for. Anyone who came in the castle could never leave without falling in love with this breeze. Just like gravitational force pulls towards the ground... similarly this breeze had a magical pull which no one could be spared from. One day someone inside the castle dared to challenge this occuring that had now become a reality. A new fight began in the castle.
An occuring that had never occured, never even been thought of in dreams began. Now the breeze had to face resistance which it never faced till now. It had to prove itself which it never thought will have to do. Inspite of knowing that it only does good, it had to fight. It had never hurted anyone, rather it has only done good to the castle, it had made it a place worth living in and worth dieing for. And now suddenly the castle said "I have my own reasons, I need to part and move ahead, I know and acknowledge that u have done good and will continue that but its time to move ahead to progress from breeze to probably something more than that." Breeze didnt understand why is this happening, it is doing its every bit to do the best it can to only spread happiness, peace and so much of love and yet here is someone who says I really love your existence but I dont want you now.
It began rebelling, resisting, it became unhappy itself, it started to loose its own power because its focus shifted from making the castle a place worth dieing for to its own survival. It began to resist, it didnt want to accept that someone who was acknowledging its presence is saying that it should leave now. It just didnt want to accept that inspite of being so powerful in itself it was dependent on someone else to take what it was giving. It started to see that if there were no takers, who would it give. It became sad, lost its charm, it felt its better to die than to leave a place it lived for. Its focus was on "why is this happening to me, I dont doesnt deserve this, I cant be stopped by someone for whom I only kept giving and giving", it lost its earlier focus of "I accept you the way you are and the way you are not, I will accept you as rude and I will accept you as being not nice". Its focus had shifted from castels happiness to its own desires. It now only wanted to be there, come what may. Its complete focus was on self now.
It wasnt anymore doing what it used to, of making the castle worth living in and worth dieing for. Now that it wasnt even doing its real job, it was very easy to be asked to leave. It had to go... Now this breeze was wandering alone, tired and almost dead, powerless and hurt. It started to blame every occuring around it for its such a sad state. It couldnt see any way out. It wanted to again start giving itself the way it used to, it wanted to but was stuck to the thoughts of why why why did all that happened, that happened. It kept on thinking and drowning, why this happened when inpsite on it only thinking and doing good. It just couldnt accept what had happened. It knew that even the castle had not left it, rather the castle also wanted it back but didnt want such a dead, tired breeze.
Nothing was working out. Everything was stuck. Neither the breeze, nor the castle wanted to accept what actually occured. This unplesantness carried on for a lot many months. Both unhappy, both wanting to be together but not in the setting it was earlier in. The breeze could have got the castle back and the castle could have got the breeze back but neither of them wanted to accept the other with these new changes. Breeze wanted to stay with the castle forever and all the time, but the castle only wanted the breeze for sometime in the day, it didnt want it forvever.
Now... what the real test... Castle asked the breeze to come along, come back and make my place worth living for and worth dieing for but dont expect to be within me all the time... You will be there only for sometime... Ha! What a moment in the life of the breeze... It wanted to be spreading its energy, love, peace and happiness all the time but the castle only wanted some part of it... Breeze wanted to give itself fully but the castle didnt want to take it fully. Now was the time for the breeze to prove its real purpose of existence. If its existed is to make the castle worth living in and worth dieing for... so be it! that is it! thats what it should do, but now how! how with all this baggage of all the hurts, blames and insecurities would it be able to do its bit.
It felt like it was playing a lost game... nothing would be the way it was and neither it will be satisfactory enough for future... it was just a lost game... It became scared, didnt want to deal, felt like jus dissolving into ashes in that moment itself. It just didnt want to deal, it didnt want to accept that the castle did want it but not the way it used to be. It felt terrible about itself. It got scared to be hurt further, all it wanted in that moment was to get DISSOLVED INTO ASHES... so tht it doesnt have to deal with anything... there was only fear gripping it... it wanted to take it off but it couldnt, it was too scared... It wanted to tell the castle how much it mattered that it be within the castle all the time... but the castle just didnt want it... Disheartened... it was resting for a while and thats when it occured to it... When there is 100% Acceptance and 0% Expectation... thats when its existence will be worth it! thats when it will leave the castle touched, moved and inspired by its presence instead of just having its need. It woke up... gathered its broken pieces and decided to create a space of freedom where the castle can be wat it is and only thats when its real purpose of existence will be fullfilled.
The tuffest part was crossing this chasm when all it wanted to do is Dissolve into ashes leaving behind everything and not have to deal with anything. Breeze got to be tuffer coz its game is getting tuffer... Hopefully it will... coz it knws its purpose... its purpose is not to own the castle... but to be with the castle when it needs it and to spread its wings of happiness and energy inside the castle.