It's Life!

Feels like the entire world has toppled down. Everything around is just an illusion then. Dont feel like doing anything. Every tasks just gets piled up, every dream just keeps getting added to the heap of things to do but there is no sign of action.

The beat inside is tearful. There is nothing I want to work out then.

Its like the whole world around is toppling down slowly, pulling down all the energies, leaving just a piece of skeleton. I say its a phase... is it really!? it seems never ending. I stand up coz I know its a phase, I am strong again and then within few moments once again... dissolved into ashes! Again I stand up and again and again... and this goes on till I can! till I will!
Life is meaningless and so its the space of nothing... this meaning of the world toppling down also means nothing! just another day, just another moment to expereince!

Wonder at times how long? and then answer it myself... if only I knew! Hold myself saying its the last 1 mt of the 100 mts run which generally is the tuffest of all. But the bloody 1 mt only gets longer than even 200 mts! How long will I fool around with myself! Ha! Its fun though!

and then I read the verse of Bhagvad Gita which says...
What did you lose that you cry about?
What did you bring with you,
which you think you have lost?
You did not bring anything,
whatever you have, you received from here.
Whatever you have given, you have given only here.

What a strange way of life!!! But yes still living every moment! :)
The world will topple and it will tear apart every bit of me from me... yet I will be standing and standing to live!