It's Life!

But can the roots in the new plant be strong enough now?

Years passed but the turbulence within never took a pause, 

and yet again in this phase of life the volcano within is undefinable.

True that 6 months from now, even today's volcano will settle down, 

Just like the volcano that happened 6 months ago or 6 years ago, today those feel like sweet moments which passed by and I dealt with it as well though they seemed like larger than life when I was in it.

Every moment like I have always believed has a very short shelf life... yes aanewala pal bhi jaanewala hai

yet everytime when in the moment, it seems like the biggest thing in the world. 

Ofcourse today it is big, its a life transforming event thats shapping up, a month later I will be in the physical sense uprooted from one plant where I have taken birth, grown, been nurtured, and prospered only to be replanted to another plant where they say you take another birth. What if the soil is not suited, what if this plant is not watered daily, what if and what if... the negative what's if are instant to crop up, but that wont give energy to this plant... so lets say what if the new soil is just what was needed to grow further, what if the plant is now self sustaining and doesn't need water but is in position to provide water to stems... yeah now the what if's gives some motivation to be replanted :)

Obviously this fear is beyond repair at the moment, probably every plant goes through, "vidhi ka vidhan", "niyati"... or some destiny thing... that's how this whole circle of being uprooted from one house to being planted into another house is only and only designed for the women. They are born with supernatural powers or what I dont know, but this feeling is litreally like standing on sand in the sea and waves taking away the little sand beneath your feet... you wonder the one beneath my feet is that the only sand out of so much around that the sea could find to take away?

Well just as this process of being uprooted has begun, letting go of the years gone by feels like a constant conflict within the small beating organ in my body every second, 'viraha - this symphony of separation' with the roots I am born in is painful, tearful, saddening and literally unnerving. Its a comfort zone I never want to leave. Mothers love, Fathers care, Sisters affection... Its absolutely irreplaceable. Why leave the world I am loved so much. Why are my roots being uprooted, the rebel within comes alive again... and once again I calm it down. 

Letting go to Begin again... Hoping its all worth it!

Darr ke aage jeet hai... Lets begin a new life...

Bring it on!!!