It's Life!

Wrote one blog, but by mistake touched the power button of the machine so everything went off & it didnt even get saved as draft :( ... dont know whether writing the same thought again will be the same... I guess not! rather obviously not... in fractions of seconds thoughts evolve... they get better then wat it was in the last second... and so will this blog, it will be better than wat got erased!
My previous blog was filled with negativity but today I am breathing again! Smiling again!
In the words of Landmark... was touched, moved and inspired by a moment I lived yesterday which made me breath again, live again! I give this credit to someone who did make this difference in just a day... in just a moment!
It was easy to be trapped in resignation, cynicism, resistance, negativity coz all I had were blinkers on! No trust, no confidence, no will power, no strenght, no power! Had got comfortable in this feeling of devastation. Was stuck, stagnant, frustrated, helpless and negative!
Till I realised... I still havent quit.
Everything seemed uphill and the only way out which looked easy and appealing was to give up, was to quit! But I didnt! didnt want to! Was hit and hurt but didnt quit!
Just one day... and everything was back!
Trust, confidence, power, strenght, respect... Hope & faith which was there within got all of them back!
Realised the value of freindship and love... It existed, it was always there but I didnt understand its connect untill now! Never knew the power this word "Freind" has!
As I was writing... this man whom I look up to was sitting beside and reciting a story... Heard it and felt one more door opening up... He said... Once you come out of it, you see the whole world out there and you see there is so much more to it then wat you had till now! Ya the risk is high, coz at every step you will feel like quitting and going back from where you came but if you keep moving only then you will realise that it was worth living so much more than just the 4 walls! btw... this man who was saying this story was Sirjee! and thats wats happening... now that I am out of the well... just like the frog in his story, who was stuck in the four walls of the well... I see that there is soo much more than just that well which is awaiting me to see it, expereince it, live it!
Read this piece somewhere which is like apt for the moment -
"The world ain’t all sun shines and rainbows...... its a very mean & nasty place and I don't care how tough you are, it'll beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.......You, me and nobody is gonna hit as hard as life, but it ain't about how hard you hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.... how much you can take and keep moving forward....."
Learnt from my yesterday that... Happiness wasnt called for, I had not expected it, I didnt know that I would have that moment of feeling of the top of the world, but I welcomed it... enjoyed it! lived it!
Then why so much of resistance towards the sad moments... obviously even they arent called for, they arent expected... but those moments also come. They make you feel like the worst thing on earth and you feel like the world is toppling on you as if you are the biggest looser. We ask... why me? why is all this happening to me... etc etc... the feelings of pity, blame and helplessness is so high that you dont see the picture behind it... which is clearly your way to get out of it. Its blocked, stuck. But once you welcome it, you fight it out! Persistence, Patience, Determination... Its easier said then done! But when you hold on to them... only then you see the world opening up the way you desired or rather much better than you even imagined!
You are obviously going to be hit... tuffer times than these will come... but I know now that I will move along with it!
The soldier is ready to get on to the battle once again... coz its equiped with its army, its armour... its fellow collegues who gives it cover fire are its hope, faith, strenght, confidence, determination, trust, love, freinds and positivity!
Yep... The soldier is ready to fight again... Its ready to see tuffer times...
It will not resist it now... it will welcome it... and then fight them too! Just like it enjoys the happy times, it sings and laughs and blushes and loves in the happy moments... it will move and flow in the tuff times too! Its got its backbone back!
Rock on... yet again... ready to conquer all thats in the thoughts!!! :)
Love Life... its worth dieing to live it! :)