It's Life!

Dirt! Dirt! Dirt! Everywhere!

You look to your right and you see fear, bloodshed, terror, rumor, negativity!
You look to your left and you see political dramas, corruptions, blame games!
Its only all this surrounding you and much more to live into and to live with.
Fear spreads like fire, leaves no sign of hope, trust and positivity. It’s all buried under the face of fear. No more of any brave smile. It’s the fear taking over much faster than any other thought.
People talk! Blame! Pull up each other!
Someone gives an opinion and the other argues over it to prove that point wrong and it goes on and on because everyone has a stand, an opinion and doesn’t want to step down.
Blame it on politicians! Ya… they get into their own shell when the real time comes and come out of it only when they need votes. They make promises, give big talks and then just hide behind the walls when terror strikes.
Blame it on the security! They are negligent, completely at lapse, not doing their duty.
Blame it on the government! for not creating the right infrastructure, not learning from past mistakes, for not providing for such attacks, for only collecting taxes and not utilizing them in the right direction.
Blame it on the citizens! The so called aam admi! For he is lazy to take care of his own things, for he doesn’t do his own job well too, for he likes to have all the comforts but not get into stuff which are worrying his social status, for he has the casual attitude and approach to things, for he doesn’t like to be vigilant and aware but only hide behind the face of fear. But yes quite modestly, the citizen will agree to all that is said above. He knows he adjusts well, soon and gets used to the circumstances.
Blame! Blame! Keep Blaming more…
Who will listen to you? People who get influenced by you – i.e. your friends, your family, your media, your country’s citizens. They all will surely listen to you, because they also have the same thoughts. They are insync with you for pulling up and blaming the same people, things, issues and situations. Ask anyone, one can on the spot spell out 10 reasons why are we in the situation that that we are in. This is wrong, this isn’t correct, this is not the right way, this is ridiculous, this that… this that… battling to prove own point right!
Everyone is suffering! No questions asked!
Everyone is suffering! Period!
Everyone is angry… No doubts about that… yes soo much of anger is there within, that you just want to get up from your seat and hold those terrorists by the neck, scratch his face with your nails, pounce on him and basically ruthlessly kill them.
So much of information is available. There are soo many news channels, soo many news papers, soo many websites on news. Each has a differing story from one another or repeat telecasts of the same stories again and again.
Who to believe? Whats the real truth? Somebody somewhere wakes up with all this and says I want to protest! Good, atleast someones thinking… But … against what?
Think… why is a terrorist so powerful – he doesn’t hold a religion, he doesn’t have a caste, he doesn’t have a nation, a city, a state, a social status to worry about, he doesn’t have the need to belong to anything or anyone, he isn’t biased, he isn’t differing from his objective, he isn’t fearing!
Now think… whats with us? We have so many biases, so many opinions on everything and anything, so many views, perspectives based on our prior experiences.
Their caste is a problem to our caste, their religion is teaching the wrong things, that state people are intruding in our jobs, that city is getting more importance, this that… this that…etc etc. With so many biases what will you protest against? Will your stand be clean?
What do you want? (By “you”… I am relating to every Indian who is thinking!)
You want peace!
You want to get away from this shitty non violence and live fearlessly!
You want this msg to be loud & clear that this is not tolerable, not acceptable!
You want to tell the world that don’t take us for a ride! Our army and matrys are not here for time pass!
You want everyone to be aware and do the right things! Do their own job well!
You want to clean the dirt!...
I don’t doubt your intentions…
But look through… look through human beings… the problem is too large then quantifiable! Every daam human is manipulated! We think in a direction which only wants to prove our point right! By default we are programmed to think in a fearful, self-defensive, resisting mode which makes all the efforts of any protest down the drains because we end up doing the same things… blaming, pulling up or not doing our own job well.
I am not a pessimist, protestor, provoker, spectator, suffer, gainer, writer, critic or an onlooker… I am also as upset and angry as everyone is.
But how long will we sustain this anger?
I see no solution! I see no direction! I see no end! Coz its only dirt all around, all over the place which only keeps multiplying faster and yet faster.
Mumbai Spirit… the sugar coated name given for all the suffering and pain which obviously gets healed with time as it is. Nothing is permanent… if the smiles and happiness and peace aren’t then even fear, helplessness and pain won’t be permanent!
We get used to this living and adjust to this combination of pain & peace which are comfortably in conjunction with each other.
If we continue living this way, subdued thinking that all will be allright than it means we aren’t justifying our existence! We are accountable to our own lives before anyone else right! So what are we thinking? Is the consciousness so lazy to wake up… its there… but its lazy! Praying & wishing are abstract feelings of hope! It surely is powerful… but isn’t helping when fear is taking over much faster then hope.
No point adding to the dirt by holding a banner saying I protest… Its just adding to the soo much dirt already around.
Then what? What do we do?
How do we sleep peacefully? Or rather… How do we now wake up from the half-unslept sleep that we are into???